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Haha, I wish I could give this to her.
(via c-ali-fornia)
I wish I could slap myself in the face.
I’m sick of wallowing, and I need to get my shit in gear. I have a job, now I just need to fix all my school shit.
It seems like everything is fighting against me lately, but I’m going to push out no matter what. I need to be better for my sister, for the man I love, and most importantly, me.
I told another man that I loved him for the first time in three years
It still feels strange saying it to him, but I know it’s true. No matter how hard I fought to keep him out of my heart, he still found a way in. Obviously I still have a lot to deal with, but I’m done pushing love out. Just because one man walked away, doesn’t mean they all do.
I’m so glad I can stand tall,
Because on the inside I feel like a fucking train wreck. This is the first time I have felt truly tested by life, nothing is held constant. I’m getting better at faking happy, I just hope that the “fake” part diminishes quickly.
One of my best friends is getting engaged on Saturday.
I knew this day was coming soon, but until recently, it was supposed to happen in late summer. Her and her boyfriend have been together for four years, and he’s moving with her when she goes to law school, so it definitely makes sense. I guess it just hurts actually knowing its going to happen to her, and it’s not for me anymore. That sounds so stupid. I love her, I love them, and I’m so excited for this engagement. Its just hard going from being on the same page as her in our relationships, and now I’m stuck at the beginning again. I didn’t realize that it would affect me this much. I hope I can get over this by Saturday, I need to step up and be her ecstatic best friend.
Bath time with adorable Eli :)
It’s done.
I no longer have anything connecting me to him. I feel like I finally have closure, my heart instantly felt more put back together when our conversation ended. I’ll always miss what we had, but I want nothing to do with the person he is now.
I’m so excited to finally allow myself to truly fall for my new guy, I’ve missed this feeling.
Enough said.
